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Through The Looking Glass

One of my promises to myself this year, call it a "resolution" if you must, was to try to get myself back on this thing (how many times have i said that...). In all seriousness though, i've been pouring my soul out to my cactus, Irving, and while such things are supposed to promote plant growth i think i've just been depressing and astounding her. Moreso, my creativity feels rather bottled up. I'd honestly almost forgotten about my little home away from home, but was recently reminded of it and so i cannot help but wish to start it once more.

So much has happened recently that much more talking will surely lead to plant-icide, and i couldn't have that now could i? So maybe i'm slightly dull from wear, but i can def say my talent for masochism hasn't been diminished.

So come of it what may, yours, Violet (though my hair is rather red now....)

Snow-pocalypse!

12-18 inches... on top of what was already on the ground! This is gonna be insane! Now, don't get me wrong, I love snow, especially when it is still in the process of falling and everything has just turned to white. I like the snow BEFORE it turns gray and slushy... BEFORE i have to shovel it off my driveway (and there is no way i'm gonna shovel it all off tmr.)

Anyway, there were some radio comedians saying that tonight was gonna be the end of the world. 

If so they are 39 minutes late and its still snowing strong.

Welcome to the snowpocalypse baby! 

I Can't Escape It

I try to be more than just that gay girl, but sometimes people make it hard. I open a forum to ask me any random question , something that's supposed to be fun and relieve the boredom of life. 

NO. This is what it turns into 

maybe you just haven't met the right penis yet, ever think of that?

my response :

or maybe i've just met the right vagina, ever think of that?

its not about men. it has nothing to do with men. women aren't lesbians because of men. we are lesbians because of women!
get over yourself already

C'mon people, is this really necessary? 

If, however, you do wanna ask me something productive, or something about this topic but it a more sincere manner, the link is http://www.formspring.me/shinymasochism 

HUZZAH!

What is it with Disney rock? How did it become so popular? These people are not mulit-talented, its all in the name recognition and stupidity of their 10 year old girl fan base. Just because someone can sing doesn't mean they can act, and vice versa. 

Take the Jonas Brothers for instance. All they have going for them are their (supposed) looks. All I hear is OMG they are so hot! I'm gonna be the next Mrs. Jonas. Um... NO! I may not be the best judge of male attractiveness, but I know for sure that these guys are not prime examples of it. 

Lame music, lame persona.... all around PHAIL? 

I mean, what ever happened to the Disney of my childhood? How could it have fallen so? To now back pathetic teen stars who they shove down everyone's throat every chance they get? 

I am saddened to see this happening.

But, FTW. I have officially defaced them! Bio (a class of sheer nothingess) was made quite epic today by my lab parter. We needed notebooks and she spent like 50 cents for 2 VERY VERY VERY marked down Jonas bros notebooks. Well, 2 sharpies and a bio class later we had 2 actually acceptable notebooks. The improvement wasn't hard to make, and it was quite fun.

So take that lame disney bands! We defy you in favor of your singing animated ancestors!   HUZZAH!

Man, I Miss Them Days

Remember those good ol' days back when we all blogged. Really, like all of us! I don't really blog as much as I complain these days (though in all honesty, when have i actually just blogged). Anyway, I still maintain this lil cranny, my own personal hunk of the wonderful world of web. 

I feel like I don't take the time to really look at the world around me and get passionate enough to write out all my random thoughts here like I used to. Actually, I haven't really done much writing lately, for anything. I feel like I've lost alot of my creativity. I haven't written a short story in forever and I haven't done any poetry in even longer than that! 

Its pretty sad. 

I remember back when I could log on to blogger and everyone had new and interesting quotes. Now most of the people I end up following are people I don't even really know. 

So dear blogger, I will not abandon you! And hopefully I can muster up some inspiration to write in you more often. 

TTFN 

Marriage =?

MARRIAGE EQUALITY

straight or gay it doesn't matter.

we've seen this before. 

its always our differences that set us apart:

the color of our skin and the shape of our genitals,

the language of our tongue, the beliefs of our hearts,

are we really all that different?

we let our bodies divide us, 

yet our bodies show the truth - 

WE ARE ALL HUMAN, so why aren't we all equal?

the religionless nation under god,

where civil rights and liberties are hailed,

individuality celebrated.

but the american dream doesn't extend to me. 

my rights are not the same. 

is it fear? how can we possibly do any further damage?

the family is not in danger, but our compassion is.

not a fan of gay marriage? then don't get one,

but don't expect me to get one of yours either. 

all we are asking is for the same chances you have.

the logic is not sound:

its not about gay vs straight

its a matter of sanity. 

some people have it, some people.... dont

guess who has the power?

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i don't like having to keep this (i hate to use this word, but its just too fitting) fight going. I AM MORE THAN MY ORIENTATION, but it is also a part of who i am. i don't define myself solely by it, for i am not one dimensional. but it is hard to ignore something that is constantly being thrown in your face. GAY? STRAIGHT? we are the same, but our rights are not. 

so may be i'm furthering the us vs them race. i don't mean to. i just have to get out my feelings. 

because some day i want to be able, if i'm ready, to create a life with someone i love. my reality is that this said person is most likely going to be a girl. it would be nice for my love to be equal in the eyes of the law with any other couple. 

why is that so wrong?